Are There Any Distinguishable Stages People Go Through from First Becoming Acquainted With Kabbalah to the Moment They Decide That They Wish to Correct Their Egoistic Nature?

We are made of a desire to enjoy with an intention for self-benefit alone. Such a desire with an intention aimed at self-fulfillment defines our egoistic nature. Although we have combinations of certain qualities in each of our desires, they are ultimately the same egoistic desire, i.e., a desire for self-fulfillment. At every moment, we seek out various ways to calm this egoistic desire.

With such an approach to our lives, we arrive at the study of Kabbalah. That is, we approach Kabbalah in order to also calm ourselves and fulfill our desires, but we usually encounter certain difficulties in this process. The desire that urges us to find its fulfillment through the wisdom of Kabbalah is a desire that is not satisfied with any availabilities in our corporeal world. We can thus find ourselves depressed and desperate from a lack of an opportunity to achieve life’s true meaning. Without revealing the meaning of life, the world appears increasingly gray as we do not know what we should do with ourselves.

That is the beginning of a spiritual search. It leads us to understand that if we fail to discover the true source and purpose of our lives, we will remain as animals, and our existence will generally be in vain.

When do we start to discover the meaning of life? It does not happen right away. We need to go through accumulations of despair, aspiration, study, incorporation with others and unconscious contact with the spiritual world, because our next spiritual degree needs to formulate itself in us via new vessels of sensation.